if you could grab coffee with Jesus, what question would you ask Him?
i think.
and ask.
''what am I missing… what do you wish I understood?''
‘’My love.’’
those words fall into my brain right after I ask the question.
if i'm honest i really was expecting something different than that.
love is such a generic answer.
I wanted something new, an earth shattering answer.
and then I feel reproved for my reaction.
tap espresso machine on,
unfold laptop,
pull up a wooden seat,
and my hot coffee and i
listen
His love.
He wishes I understood His love.
oh my mind is so feeble
perhaps His answer is earth shattering.
why do I not let myself know this love more?
why are we humans so walled up
to His love?
the thing is
He loves us just the same amount
whether we are aware of it or not
so why not
open the hands
and ask Him
to actually show us this reckless love
its vulnerable
yet
where is our belief?
for
being vulnerable with Jesus
is literally the safest place to be
Jesus will be as tender with us as possible
why do we not believe this?
why do we push this love away?
love is the most powerful thing, not?
how are we humans
that stuck up in ourselves that
we hold limits toward
our very Creator
this unbelief,
when does it become sin?
the hot coffee sits waiting
i wonder
if Jesus was sitting at this desk with me,
if our coffee would even get sipped,
for i wonder
if i would be to lost in His words
that i would forget about all else
love does that.
this love makes us easily forget about earthly things
its the type of love that you get immersed in
changed in
so many of us are meandering around this earth
naive.
we simply do not comprehend simple love
perhaps we would not get frustrated
with waiting
if we actually saw the reason why
God was asking us to wait.
because
if we truly let ourselves
daydream about the reason
of how God
absolutely has the best in mind
for us
specifically
would we actually be frustrated at His ways?
maybe so much of love
is being quiet.
because love feels like home
and when a soul feels that safety
it neglects striving.
it can be quiet.
so maybe
to start
knowing this wild love
we need
a hot cup in hand
and a quiet seat
and a simple prayer of
Lord show me this love.
help my unbelief.
listen…
wait
for His reply.
perhaps we are all surrounded
in a ocean of perfect love
and we just need to unclench the jaw,
open
the eyes.
i believe
this love is all around.
in every sunray and every raindrop
i read psalms 23
and swallow my lukewarm coffee now
what if we actually believed
He was enough
for every need?
what if we actually believed
we did not lack one single thing
for we had it all
with Him?
how would we react to life
if we actually knew this love?
if we knew in our hearts
that absolutely nothing
could separate us
from this love that pursues
each human on this earth
continually.
not one awkward encounter
or misplaced comment
or stumbling moment
would make Him think less of you
for the love is based off His character
not our behavior.
nothing can destroy that love
do we even know what unconditional love is?
the more that i write
the more i want to know
this love
what would happen
if we believed
He was preparing us,
not criticizing us.
i reach my phone and type a text
to a friend
''everything God does is love, right?''
the reply is on the screen quick
''everything God does is love.''
''so taking His people Home is an act of love?''
''yes. an act of great love.''
which. when it's worded like that. I'm like "duh.
it is love to bring people home".
well i can take that as a healing nudge or reject that.
really
everything He does
is so wildly saturated in love
we cannot even comprehend it
alone.
i turn back to the Bible
what if we believed these common words
on these crinkly pages
what would happen to us?
do you not wonder too?
what if we actually knew this personal love,
for each soul
that's walking through walmart.
what would happen if we actually
surrendered to this love
even just a bit more
than we did yesterday?
how would we view
minor interruptions throughout the day?
how would we actually respond
to our devotions when we know
we would be having personal quality time with the Creator
of our very soul?
''God's way of loving you is giving you peace''
house mama said that the other day.
what if we complicate this all
way more
than we ever want to admit?
why do we fear this perfect love?
is it because for us to know it
we need to be surrendered?
and for some reason surrender is so terrifying
to us humans
but surrender can be so safe
actually
we want to bring something to this deal…
humans crave to earn,
and pocket
the love that we desperately fish for.
we believe we need to do
something
to be loved unconditionally
what if we called that lie out?
truly
how would we live differently
if we knew that all we needed to do was
open our heart
to receive this love?
and once surrender is known,
obedience is necessary.
but here's the thing,
we want to obey Him
when we are being filled up with His love.
saying ‘’yes’’ to Him looks different
when we have surrendered
head over heels into His love.
love changes how our hearts recite
this world
what if we abandoned pride
and simply choose
to believe?
Thanks Jera, I needed this today.
🤍, Keri